When our faith is tested

i know in order for us to grow we must be tested and when we are God's children he prepares us before we are tested. a few weeks ago, noah came and stayed with me for 3 weeks and it made me happier than i have been in a very long time.

sometimes we are greatly blessed just before we are pressed against the wall so that our faith can lean on the strength that comes from past blessings. i know this because i've been against the wall before.

my older boys, chris and enoch always encourage me to press on and to hold on to God's Grace.

i love the sound of the rain

its a beautiful thing to see and hear the rain falling from above. right now i'm lying down on the couch, working on my computer while watching survivor. it's so relaxing to hear the rain hitting the roof. i have finally come to the place and accepted that only God can fix my life. i don't know what wonderful things He has for me, but i am sure He loves me and excited about whatever it is that He has in store for me.

it has been an amazing journey for me to be able to do things with my middle son enoch. in this picture he is fixing an xbox for his brother-in-law.  he has a smile that is always contagious. i love you buddy.

Chris calls me almost everyday and checks on me. i love getting to hear his voice and listen to him tell me about what he's doing and how his day is going. its always uplifting to hear him talk about how much he loves his boys. hearing him laugh is like the sun shining on my face... it feels good. i miss getting to see him but hopefully i'll get to go down and see him at my mom's house for thanksgiving. thanks for calling me and always making my day brighter. love ya buddy!

Noah is learning to say all kinds of things and starting to make short sentences. he is so smart and funny. i have to say the 3 weeks he was with me was the best 3 weeks i've had in a long time. i can't wait to see him again. we did something fun everyday. but our favorite time was going to bed and waking up. its so much fun watching him wind down and then watching him wake up in the morning like a flower opening up to see the sunlight. Lulla...