a little hard work...

a little hard work never hurt anybody... my dad never really said it but by example, he taught me how to be work like a man fighten fire. as long as i can remember, my dad worked at two jobs. i'm trying to get my feet on the ground, spiritually and financially. God has my feet on the rock of ages and i'm doin' pretty good there but between working with Enoch, Papa Johns, and some side work i'm puttin' in about 90 hours a week for now but i know God has a plan where i'll be able see my little boy and watch him grow up.

sometimes we think we can do it all ourselves but i know from experience that all my efforts are futile without God at the helm of my life. i love working with Enoch and getting to spend time with him. he a real worker and yet he's still that funny Enoch we have always known... the other day, walkin' out of the dining hall, he busted out a little boody dancin' and singin' a few lines "dang girl, how'd you get all that... in them jeans, in them jeans, how'd you get all that... in them jeans, in them jeans"... i laughed the rest of the day about how funny he can be.

when i least expect it, he'll come by and pat me on the back and give me a hug while we're cuttin' grass or blowin' off the roads. Sam and Enoch bought a house and are moving this week... they are so excited and i am so proud of both of them.

last week i drove down to see Terrie and Noah for Thanksgiving. i was on cloud nine to have them little hands reaching up for me to pick him up. God knows how to bless us beyond our imagination if we'll just be patient and let Him lead us instead of getting ahead of Him. Terrie and I decided several months ago to seek God's will and wait on Him to direct our future decisions. We both know that God has a plan and we're waiting for Him this time.

it was good to spend a couple of days in MS to see my mom and my sister. Chris and Maria came with their boys (five wonderful grandsons!) i can't explain how good it made me feel to hug my oldest son and see how great a dad he has become. i'm hoping to make a trip to TX in a few weeks to spend Christmas at Chris and Maria's house.

Allowing God to work in my life

for some of us its very hard to allow God to do a work in our lives. i find myself trying to do and fix everything myself only to find myself overworked, underpaid, and frazzled. God is not going to help us until we understand that we cannot succeed on our own. we must recognize that we need Him before He is going to step onto the scene and began that glorious work that He desires to do in our lives. its a point where we must become submissive and completely trust Him. i look at my circumstances and see only chaos and uncertainty but if i will allow myself to look back at all the times that God has delivered me maybe i can look at my circumstances thru the eyes of the Lord and understand that its just a matter of time before my mountain will move before my eyes. there are several mountains in my path but i am determined to hold on to God's hand and climb over every rock to get into the presence of God. the enemy has been after me for a long time and for the past few years he has managed to seperate me from the ministry of God. i love my family and i love serving God. i cannot repair the damages that i have done and with this truth, the devil has kept me imprisoned long enough. God has been waiting for me to accept my inability of the things i cannot do so that He can perform a miracle in my life and in the lives of those i love.