Heavenly Perspective

Noah is bursting with knowledge, words, a beautiful little voice that says some of the cutest things. he loves to chew gum and he's very proud of it. when he's chewing gum, he tells everybody "hey" then immediately he then says, "i got gum". it's so funny, i can get enough of it.

i love to hear him say, "awe man"..., and "i'm precious", and "i'm cute". there's a country song i gave to terrie for valentines day that he likes to hear. it's called "Give me that girl" by Joe Nichols. he loves using straws as drum sticks and playing pretend drums with his straws.

after hearing the song, he said, mama's a country girl... then he said, i'm a country boy... it's so amazing to hear him put sentences together. it takes my breath away to see how fast he's growing and progressing.

knowing that God is working things out for me to be with my family has lifted me above all the obstacles in my life. it's as though God's Grace is being outpoured on me and i can't explain how much God has changed my perspective.

Russ Sarratt gave a devotional today at work today that was an exceptional truth from God. he talked about the fact that we have two ways to view the things in our life. thru a human perspective with limited means or we can view our circumstances thru God's perspective with unlimited power. i choose the latter and God has a perfect record and has never lost a battle, never been surprised, and he's never been late.

Something on the Horizon

God makes beautiful things... last weekend when i went to see noah and terrie, we decided to drive on down to dauphin island to see the water.

i have to say that noah has the cutest toes i've ever seen and to see him running barefoot in the sand was a beautiful sight. he is so loving and brings so much joy to me and terrie.

while we were walking along the beach, it felt as though God was walking beside us, confirming our relationship with each other and with Him.

i can't explain the peace that God has given me concerning my walk with Him and my family. every so often God says, "Now let me show you what I can do"... He never ceases to amaze me when He rolls back the clouds. i can say with confidence that my storm has passed.

i started reading my Bible a few weeks ago, and so far i've read Proverbs, Ecclesiates, Song of Solomon, Isaiah, Jerimiah, Lamentations, and now i'm almost halfway thru Ezekiel. in all my life i've never experienced what i'm feeling when i'm reading the Bible. it's as though God is actually talking to me and when i finish reading, it's like i've been washed clean and saved all over again.

it's a good feeling to be friends again with my Savior. i've missed him over the past few years. i know He never left me even though i wasn't listening or talking to Him. He was patient and long suffering with me. He waited for me to exhaust all means of my will until i looked up in my distress and called on His name for help. it was in that very moment that His presence came flooding into my soul and lifted me out of the mire and freed me from chains of my sin and guilt.

there's nothing like being free. there's nothing like being a good man. there's nothing like walking with God. there's nothing like getting a gift from the Lord. my gift is my family and i am so excited to know what is coming in my life.

My Father gives good gifts

It was another great weekend. God smiled on us and poured out His blessings without measure. My cup is filled to overflowing and I am at more peace with God than I can ever remember. They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder. After drifting away from God over the past few years, i cherish my relationship with God now more than ever. God has reminded me who I am.

God has established my feet. My eyes are fixed on the Master of the wind. He is my Refuge, my Fortress, and Hightower. He speaks to me continually as if He is walking by my side.

we had a great time at the beach on dauphin island and noah loved seeing the water and feeding the seagulls. there was a peace from God that spilled over into my soul and for the first time i could feel and see that being with my family was in sight. God asked me a few months ago what i wanted, and as our Father, it is in His interest to give us good gifts.

Matthew 7:11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him? i know without any doubts that there is a happy day for me and my family on the horizon.

Love is a beautiful thing

feels good to be in love and know that God has a wonderful plan for my life. a few years ago i met this beautiful person who made me feel so alive, who makes my heart pound when i think about holding her in my arms.
God's grace is revealing new things to us each day and i know in my heart that something awesome is about to happen in our lives. God has promised me that I will be with my family soon and it feels good to be able to hear the voice of God again.

For the past few months i've been reading my Bible with a fervency. i've read Isaiah, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon, and almost thru with Jeremiah. it has washed away all the stress and worries from my mind. i feel clean in the sight of God and it's reminded me of the person i was when Terrie and i first met.

Path called Faithfulness and Obedience

i can finally say that my storm has passed. it is as though a calm breeze blowing in my life and God is transforming me. God has freed me from all my anxiety and fear. He has replaced my broken heart with a brand new heart and i know that i know that i know my redemption is sure. this past Sunday, it felt as though God was sitting beside me as i wept tears of joy. i stood there thinking it was the first time in a long time that i was not weeping from guilt and regret.

i've been staying with some friends that is teaching me that the blessings never run out as long as we keep giving them away. it's an amazing feeling to feel safe and loved. God has revealed Himself thru my friends Terry and Theta. i'm reminded of the story in 2Kings where their was a couple who provided a room for Elisha. it's amazing to know that God loves me this much to allow me to stay with such Godly people that love God this much.

i've finished reading Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon, and almost thru reading Jerimiah. the more i read the cleaner i feel and it has removed all stress from me. there is a peace that clings to me and it's reassuring me that God has a plan. it's given me a new confidence in my walk with God, with myself, and with my relationship with my beautiful Terrie.

God has restored and repaired the brokeness of my heart. He has given me a new vision and hope for the future. Every morning when i wake up there is an expectation of what God is doing in my life and in the life of the ones i love. i know God is preparing me for His purpose. i know He loves me and sees something in me that is usable.

Before Christmas He asked me what i wanted and i told him that i wanted to be a part of Terrie and Noah's life. I wanted my family, i wanted to be able to be with them all the time.. to have the opportunity to love Terrie and stand beside her. to be able to go to sleep and wake up with my Terrie and my Noah. it was as though i could feel the Lord smiling at me, assuring me that He wanted to give this to me even more than i could imagine.

God has promised if we are faithful and obedient that He will give us the desires of our heart. more than anything in this world, i want to be with my family. i can see more clearly now that the path to lead me there is called faithfulness and obedience.

The Lord is my strength!

But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

Hallelujah and Praise the Lord Almighty for his wonderful works that He is doing in my life. God has touched my life during the past few weeks and has transformed me into a new man. He has recovered my joy, repaired the brokeness of my heart, and opened my eyes to see His Glory.

i've been praying for God to make a way for me to be with my family and this past weekend was another awesome gift from God. i know it is just a sample of more great things to come. God has greater things than i can imagine in store for me and my family.

i've been praying for God to work a healing in my life and the presence of God was overwhelming to say the least. i feel like He has poured out His Grace on me and my family.

Jehovah-Tsori - Lord my Strength - Psalm 19:14