A little gravel goes a long way...

This was a weekend where all i wanted to do was play with my little "tough guy" with his trucks in the gravel. It's the most relaxing thing in the world! When I'm in his world, time just stops still and that's the way i like it...

He loves the rocks.. sometimes we pick em up and take turns throwing in the water by the creek and sometimes in a puddle at the end of the dirt road.

Rocks make a perfect truck even better... for that matter, rocks even make my old truck better. It's a beautiful thing to open up the lid to put some fuel in my truck and find a little handful of rocks where my big guy decided to leave me a little some'in some'in to surprise me.

We like surprising each other. My weekend usually winds down with him snuggled up on my shoulder reading a book or two, then hearing him wind down talking in the dark. He'll say mama, you alright? after she says, yeah i'm alright, then he'll say, daddy.. you alright?.. i'll say yep, i'm alright little buddy. then i'll ask him, are you alright? and he'll softly say, i'm alright.. then as he starts to drift off, sometimes he'll sing twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are.. it's the most beautiful sound in the world!

i let him know before bedtime that i'll be going to tuscaloosa in the morning. and after he goes to sleep, i'll get up and make the drive back to t-town. before i leave, i make sure i leave him a little surprise to find later, usually hidden in his microwave.

A little pickmeup in my pickup

I can't get enough of looking at this picture! it's bursting with sweetness and takes my breath away everytime I see it...

i can ask him, are you a tough guy... and he'll say, (in a deep voice), "yeah, i'm a tough guy"

he was playing in the back of the truck, checking everything out and when i got the camera ready, i said, hey buddy, give me a sweet face and this is what i got!

pretty good, huh...

God has truly blessed me with the cutest little boy in the world!!!

It's SO good...

Fall is my favorite time of the year.. i love how the air feels especially when me and noah are in the back of my old truck.

We like riding down this dirt road and parking beside a big puddle so we can throw rocks in the water. yeah... it's an art ;-)

I love hearing him talk, his little voice is so powerful. it has a magical way of making me feel taller.. his new phrase is "that's SO good". and just before we go to sleep, he'll whisper "are you alright.." after i reply and ask him, he'll say.. "i'm alright".. yeah, it's priceless.

during the week, i'm all business, work, and schoolwork. just finished another paper last night and started on another one today. i have a ton of stuff that has to be finished within the next few weeks but i really like my classes. but on the weekends, i'm all about seeing just how much fun we can have together.

i'm planning to go see my mom and my sister for thanksgiving in a few weeks. i'll get to see all three of my boys at one time... though i'm not with my boys, i get to talk to all three of them everyday. i am so blessed!

Busy, busy, busy... did i mention that i was busy?

I'm doing pretty good balancing my schoolwork, work work, and weekend family time. I get to go see the "big guy" almost every weekend. It's so funny to hear Noah say things to other people that we don't know. On my last visit, we went to the Explorium in Mobile and saw the kangaroo exibit and IMAX movie. it was so much fun! later, we went to eat seafood at one of our favorite restaurants called Felix's. before going inside, we walked over to see the water and there were two big guys fishing. when we walked by, Noah proudly said, "hey big guy", yeah it was one of many funny moments that i'll always cherish.

I'm taking 3 graduate classes and so far, my head is still above water. doing good on my grades and learning new technologies. staying up late most nights doing homework and an occasional netflix movie. btw, i started watching a new series called Survivors.

Chris and I talk almost everyday and we both stay in touch with Enoch too. Both of them are doing good and I love them so much!

Noah is so precious and whenever we are in public his personality starts to glow. He loves pushing around his big dump truck and tells me, "i'm goin' to tuscaloosa!" "goin' to work", then he'll say to me in a soft higher pitched voice, "it'll be ok big fella"... yeah that's priceless!!

He can run so fast now and loves to play... we can be riding in the car and i'll turn around to see him drifting off to sleep with his eyes barely open, and i'll whisper to him, "are you tired", and he'll whisper back to me, "no, i'm not tired"...

Terrie and I both have quite a bit on our plates, but we are both so thankful to have our life in tune with the Lord.

We both are waiting patiently for the day when we can be together as husband and wife in the sight of God. Until then, all we can do is be the best parents we can be while we patiently wait for our time. Our day will come, and when it does, my heart will dance again like never before.

i love you mamabear and boybear...

-daddybear

Rich Man!

September and October are two of my favorite months in the year. I love being able to detect the first signs of Fall. Before the leaves begin to start falling, there'll be a morning when i can definitely feel a clean coolness in the air. it's an amazing and distinct feeling that reminds me of how wonderful it is to be happy and carefree.

Noah is growing more amazing everyday. i love his little one liners... sometimes if we say one of his little sayings, he'll say, "you don't say that, i say that". if we say, "i tell you what.."  he'll quickly say, "no i tell you what". he loves getting the big trucks to blow their horn and sometimes when they don't, he'll say, "he can't blow his horn" or when he says hey to a stranger somewhere and they don't respond, he'll look at me and say, "he can't talk to me".

i love him so much and can't wait for us to be together. i get to see him every other weekend and sometimes a little more than that and it is always priceless. on my last visit, we played football in the yard, and he never slowed down. he loves it! i took him a bama football shirt, and he didn't want to take it off.

he loves playing in my truck and the horn had stopped working so i asked him if he wanted to help me fix it. his face lit up and he was all about getting to work on the truck. i handed him a little blue fuse and told him it was what we were going to put in, so he held on to it while i took off the fuse panel. he was crouched down looking intensely while i took out the old fuse. i showed it to him and so we traded. i put in the new fuse and told him he could try the horn and see if it worked. he climbed up from the floorboard and the look on his face when he pressed the horn was amazing! he blowed the horn and started laughing and saying, "i fixed the horn.. i fixed the horn.." yeah i'm a rich man!

Roll Tide!

ok i'm officially a full time UA student working toward getting my Masters in Interactive Technology. yeah it sounds awesome.. has a nice ring to it ;-) i'm lovin' my job here at UA and my apartment is so convenient being less than a mile from where i work.

i watched a really funny movie called Rango.. i laughed til i cried.. it's definitely worth watching again. a couple of others that rank at the top of my list are Limitless and another one called Sahara.

i bought a pair of Airwalk flipflops that have become my favorite pair of shoes!

I'm HERE!

Noah was so happy when he saw me and said, "I'm HERE!". He's been wanting to come see me in Tuscaloosa and he was so excited.

It doesn't matter what we're doing, as long as we're together.. we're having fun! making funny noises, pretending to be sharks, or saying, "don't let frank getcha!" (from the movie cars).

we love swimming and did a lot of that over the past few days. he loved my apartment and had so much fun running and playing in a new place.

he likes pretending that he works at a fast-food drive thru and acts like he's keying in what you order. he loves trains and got to see several while he was here. the garbage truck fascinates him as well as anything that looks like a firetruck!

Sandcastle time!

i don't know who had more fun, noah or me. friday night we built a fire and he is all business when it comes to gathering wood. he loved it and i was taking it all in and basking in the quality time i'm getting to spend with my beautiful little boy!

we went to the beach on saturday and the sun felt so good. we had fun playing in the water and jumping into the waves. noah was amazed at how the waves worked. we built a few sandcastles, and one of them had a tunnel all the way thru so that his little dump truck could go thru.

he specializes in two things building and demolition. this picture was right after he did some finalization work ;-) noah played and played and ran as fast as his little legs would take him.

sunday night he told me he wanted to sleep with me on his bed and after saying our prayers, he layed down next to me and put his arm around my neck and went to sleep. yeah, it's amazing what God can do. when i slipped out of bed monday morning at 4:30am, i knelt beside the bed to say a prayer before heading back to tuscaloosa. while i was praying, i felt a little hand reach over and take mine. isn't it just like God to give us the desires of our heart...

Another Great Weekend!

hearing Noah say, you're HERE Dad! melts me like butter. he loves going to get water at the artesian spring. Noah likes to wade in the water while mamabear fills up her water bottles. he loves to help.

he is truly amazing and so much fun. he goes 90 to nothin' until he konks out at naptime or bedtime.

i can't explain how great it feels to be with my little boy. Noah is beautiful in every way and the sound of his little voice echoes in my heart even when i'm not with him. i can hear him talking and singing and being silly. oh, he loves to be silly!

he likes to act like he's taking our order at a fastfood restraunt. he'll say, what you want dad... he then waits for me to say, I... want.... hamburger, french fries, and a milkshake. then he'll act like he's pressing keys on a computer and make a beeping sound, then he'll act like he's handing me my food.

Terrie has about 15 or so water bottles that she fills at the water spring. Noah loves being right there in the middle of the action. not only does he fill em up he also helps carry them in the house when we get back home. kinda like he knows that one of his jobs is helping toss the wet clothes into the dryer. Terrie puts them on the dryer door and Noah pushes them into the dryer. when he notices something of mine, he'll say.. uh.. that's dad's.

i love my new job at the university of alabama and seem to be catching on and learning how to do all the things that come my way. God helps me everyday to do the things that i need to do. He gives me grace and patience to follow Him and wait for the day that i get to be with my family all the time. i'm grateful to be closer to them and i'm praying for God to continue to work things out for us to be together. i've been in my apartment now for a week and starting to cook in my kitchen. i'm only a mile from where i work so i get to go home for lunch.. saves me quite a bit on not eating out.

July 4th Weekend!

this past weekend was so much fun. i spent the night with enoch and we played halo. it was so good to see him and hear him talk and laugh.

on my drive down to see terrie and noah, i talked to chris on the phone. i'm so proud of chris and enoch and hearing them talk to me. i hope that after i get settled in my apartment that we can start playing some xbox live together.

noah was on the porch when i drove up and from the moment i picked him up we were like glued together for the whole weekend.  every night we'd get in my truck and drive down the dirt rode. he loves my old truck.

we picked up some sticks for firewood to build a fire and he was so excited. he made every step i made and loved helping build the fire. he is so amazing and full of life, i can hardly wait to be with him all the time.

after we got our baths and pj's on, he'd say, "get me dad" then i chase him down the hall and he would run into the bedroom and close the door before i could get him. he'd wait about 5 seconds and then slowly open the door, looking for me. i would hide in a different place each time and it was so funny to see him find me. one time i put a blanket over a bean bag and he thought it was me, i scarred him so good he got weak all over and laughed and laughed.

me and terrie had a great time cooking together... i cooked some hamburgers and she fixed corn, baked beans, baked potatoes and tea... Mmmm so good! she fixed a brownie dessert with strawberries, vanilla pudding and ice cream. wow! after dinner we piled up and watched an awesome fireworks show on youtube for our july 4th http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xy_9bx6U8_0

i have an apartment!

well, i now have my own place again! i moved into my apartment this morning before coming into work. it'll have to wait until after the weekend before i get to cook in my kitchen. heading to enoch's house when i get off from work today. taking ken's trailer back to him tomorrow, then i'll get to go spend a couple of days with the bossman (noah) and mamabear (terrie).

busy is good...

i'm really enjoying my work and still learning things everyday. i couldn't have asked God for a better work environment. i have six graduate students that work with me in our technical support; zach, randy, morgan, latasha, hannah, and katy.

i got here about 20 minutes early and cleaned up my desk a little before starting on the work tickets. after taking care of a few tickets, i picked back up on a project we started last week, re-imaging laptops. we have about 30 macbooks that have dual operating systems. i'm installing 4 at a time and it takes about 30-40 minutes for that process to complete. i'm using a software called deploystudio which creates an image of one machine and then allows me to copy that image onto other laptops.

here's one of noah's projects, he loves going to school (daycare) and playing with all the other kids (working on his organizational and management skills). they call me every morning on their way to school and he tells me all kinds of stuff. he tells me about seeing the big trucks and school buses. he'll talk to me and say, "look dad.." expecting me to be able to see what he sees. it's a beautiful thing!

then before we get off the phone, he'll tell me, "have a GOOOOD day!" then he'll say, "I LOVE YOU DAD". he's really good at enphasizing his words. the only thing greater than hearing him talk is seeing him talk.

God has given me joy unspeakable!

Life is moving fast...

there have been times in the past when it seems like time stood still, it seemed like i would never get out of the rut my life fell into, but then God says, "let me show you what I can do". almost overnight, my life has been launched into a fast-paced, edge-of-your-seat series of events that makes each day go by so fast.

i wake up every morning about 10 minutes before my phone alarm goes off. i have two alarms set on my phone, one at 6am and another at 7am, but my goal is to never have to hear them. i turn off my 6am alarm before it goes off, then i gradually wake up and get up before 7am and turn that one off too.

i pick up something to eat on my way to work and usually get to the office around 7:30 or 7:45. i like getting there early and opening up my office and the websuite office where the graduate students work which is next door to my office.

i get started by checking my email, then our helpdesk work orders. for the past couple of days i've converting videos into podcasts. a couple of projects i'm currently working on: converting a couple of vhs videos to streaming video/digital format video which will start out as a wmv file. then i'll convert the wmv file to a w4v file before finally creating a podcast. i also have another project where the instructor has a video and also some powerpoint slides that i'll merge together so that you can see the video of the instructor while at the same time your watching the powerpoint slides. that's called pip, picture in picture.

miss eating in the dining hall at WinShape, and i think about it everyday that i find myself making choices what i'm gonna eat for lunch. yesterday, i got a barbeque sandwich at a restraunt called Dreamland.. a lot of times i'll go pick up a personal pan pizza at pizza hut, its good, fast, and close to my office. can't wait to get in my apartment so that i can start eating healthier and at home.

after lunch, it seems like time flies by and it's 5 o'clock before i know it. i usually pick up something to eat and come back to my office and watch something on netflix. can't believe i've finished the last episode of 24,  so the last couple of shows i've watched was Jerry Mcguire and the chronicles of Indiana Jones.

i'm still reading the Bible and just finished the book of Phillipians. i'm praying everyday and everynight to keep following God so that i can be with my family all the time. it's great to be closer to them and i know in my heart that God has a plan for them to be with me.

next friday is my moving in day and i'm also planning on taking ken's trailer back to him on saturday and picking up my car.

New things...

learning lots of new things... i've been spending a lot of time using a mac. i'm supporting software called "blackboard", webct, D2L access, camtasia, vegas, handbrake, tegrity, mediasite, and teamviewer remote assistance. also getting familiar with browsers other than IE called firefox, safari, and google chrome. its really cool to be submerged into an online learning environment.

i work with 6 graduate students that are all excellent at IT support, i also have two great supervisors that are easy to learn from. there are about 10 course designers that i also work with that build some amazing learning courses along with the instructors. so i'm learning new things everyday.

i was approved to get my apartment and will be moving in on July 1. i have applied to the university of alabama to get my master's degree in interactive technology. they only accept so many students each semester and are reviewing applications next week.

finished watching Jerry McGuire again and it made me tear up and laugh. i love the little boy in the movie and it made me miss my little noah. i can't wait until i can be with him all of the time. we had so much fun this past father's day weekend. we went swimming and he was so amazing! he is learning to talk so good now and says some of the funniest things. he is soOOoo cute!!!

God is healing me on another level

ok, i've been searching for an apartment and after looking at several, i've decided to get the one i looked at last night. the apartment complex is called "The French Quarters" and it's a gated community with a pool and fitness center. the apartments are still new and i'm only the 3rd person that will be living in my apartment. really nice appliances with 900 sq feet of living space. it's only a block from a nice park with a playground and less than a mile from where i work. it's kinda tucked away on 8th Ave off of 15th Street. i will be moving in the last week of july so i'm really excited to have my own kitchen where i can start cooking again!

lovin' my new job and God has again placed me in the midst of a great group of coworkers. i can feel the prayers and support from my friends that are lifting me up to the Lord and i am so thankful. i'm happier than i have been in a long long time.

i opened a new bank account at the Alabama Credit Union and they have a program that will help me clean up and repair my credit. God is starting to heal me on another level. when i was in Georgia, God healed me emotionally, and now i know God is going to heal me financially! i'm getting closer and closer to being with my beautiful terrie and my amazing little noah...

apartment hunting...

going today to look at a studio apartment on the upside of Ttown in an area called Northport. i've read some good reviews and some friends in my department have told me that it's one of the more conservative family areas that frowns on the loud college crowd atmosphere.

rather get a house instead of paying rent but it is what it is and i'll have to do whatever i have to do until i can do better. i know God has plans for my life and i'm not afraid of anything. no axiety and the only thing that overwhelms me is the Peace of God.

Getting my feet on the ground!

Ok this is my 3rd week at the University of Alabama and one of the coolest things is that i'm getting to wear jeans and tennis shoes, Yayeee! i dress up on occasion when i've got a meeting but for the most part its really laid back. love working with the graduate students that work with our support team. they've been really patient with me and teaching me a TON of new stuff dealing with online support for the students and instructors.

moved the rest of my stuff this past weekend and got to spend a few days with enoch. he really helped me out so much with taking my car to the place in talking rock, ga. i'm getting a new transmission put in it and i'll have a '96 Honda Accord, wow, sure will be nice to get some good gas mileage and air condition!

love love love being closer to my terrie and my noah!!! talk to them everyday, they call in the mornings and we text throughout the day, then we talk when i get off and before we go to bed. God has really blessed me and terrie with our relationship. it's growing stronger everyday and we enjoy each other's conversation and company.

she's doing well at school and has been accepted into the nursing program where she is currently going to college. i've applied to go into the Graduate program here at the University and get a Master's degree in Interactive Technology. I will start this fall and the University will pay for my schooling.

i have insurance now and planning on going to the dentist and the optometrist. the university provides free family counseling and the credit union provides free financial counseling. i've enrolled in both programs and looking forward to God moving me to the next step in my healing.

i've just finished reading I Corinthians and God is walking with me everyday. i feel better about myself than i have in a long time.

Roll Tide Roll

ok, i'm not really a football fan yet but who knows... it may rub off on me ;-) today is my second day at UA and i have to say with all the changes in my life and moving that i feel a little bit disconnected. terrie and noah are calling me regularly and that is helping me more than i can say. i finished reading the book of Acts last night and now in Romans. It was awesome getting to spend last week with Terrie and Noah. I can hardly wait to be able to be with them everyday... God has the wheels turning and i can see it getting closer! i have an office here and i'm working with a group of students that manage the online support lines. lots of new stuff that i'm learning and God is truly loving on me.

University of Tuscaloosa

It was a God-thing when i went to my job interview at the University of Alabama. The Lord let me shine in my element and i give Him all the glory. A week after my interview the University called and made me an offer. After a few days i was on my way back from visiting with Terrie and Noah and while i was driving back to Georgia, i felt the Lord tell me to call and accept the offer, so i did. I turned in my notice here at WinShape and May 12th will be my last day here. i'll be driving down on the 13th to see Terrie graduate and they are coming back up to GA with me for a few days. 

Terrie and I have talked about the possibility of getting married on Dauphin Island and would like Pastor Joe Johnson from Mount Hebron Church in Mobile to perform the ceremony. no date yet but i am hopeful that it will be sometime this year. i'm so excited to see my life moving forward and i've been overwhelmed with the Holy Ghost everyday. in January i started reading my Bible in Proverbs and i'm now in the book of Acts. reading the Bible has definitely brought me closer to God and has given me a Peace that passes all understanding.

noah is so beautiful!

The Road to Happiness!

The road to happiness begins with fully submitting our lives to God. I can't begin to express how much joy I feel right now. Noah is so beautiful! He is truly an expression of God's love to me and Terrie.

I have a good feeling about the job interview next week at the University of Alabama. I don't know the details of God's plan for me and my family, but i do know that we will be together soon.

God's promises are Yes and Amen! (2 Cor 2:20) He has promised to give me the desires of my heart. (Psalm 37:4) It feels so good to hear the voice of God and to know He's walking with me every day.

I can't wait to be with my family! I'm so excited to be taking the next step on this road to my family... i love you Terrie! i love you Noah!

She said YES!

whew!!! what a thrill to be carrying that ring in my pocket waiting for the right moment. i went down to see terrie and noah last week with an intent to propose. i've been walking with God for sometime now and have immersed myself in His Word. He promised to give me the desires of my heart if I would be obedient. well... i can't stop smiling and it feels great to take another step forward.

we love going to the beach and noah loves playing in the sand and seeing the water. the seagulls were awesome, they looked like little penguins and Noah had the best time chasing them. me and noah built sand castles while terrie picked up seashells.

then the moment presented itself... while noah was chasing some seagulls, terrie and i were sitting on our knees in the sand enjoying the beauty and wonder of our handsome little Noah. i slipped my hand in my pocket and pulled out the ringbox as she turned back to look at me.. i looked into her beautiful green eyes and said, God sure has brought us a long way... He's made me a better man and i want to be with you and love you and stand beside you. then after a deep breath and a quite pause, i opened the ringbox and said, will you marry me?

the next two or three minutes felt like an eternity until i heard her say in her gentle voice, yes! it was a perfect fit as i placed the ring on her finger... the sound of the waves and the wind was like a symphony playing in the background with a tiny voice of laughter from our little Noah playing in the distance.

Noah came up to us and Terrie asked Noah, do you think i should marry your daddy? ...he said, Uh huh...

Art is a beautiful thing... but the artist is amazing!

God is the Artist of my life and He has painted some remarkable things on the canvas of my soul. I look back on my life and can't help but be amazed at the joy that God has given me.

Sometimes, it's hard to see the picture He's working on but if we can be patient and fully submit our lives to Him, He will in fact reveal His handywork through our lives.

Last week, Enoch started reading his Bible in the same book that i was reading. We are both not far from finishing up the Old Testament. The scriptures were like a missing piece of a puzzle in my life. And when i put it in the right place, a remarkable picture of who i am was revealed.

God’s favor opens the doors that we cannot. His faithfulness reveals His love and He is always as near as the mention of His name.

My heart is so happy that at times it feels as though it is about to burst. It’s how it feels when you’ve worked out and your muscles get tight. Reading my Bible and praying has strengthened my heart and it feels wonderful.

Noah is SO Beautiful! I love this picture of him working with his artwork. God has great things in store for me, Terrie and our Beautiful Noah. God is faithful to reward them that diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6).

Joy Unspeakable

for the past 6 weeks, i have submerged myself in the scriptures and so far, i've read proverbs, ecclesiates, song of solomon, isaiah, jeremiah, lamentations, ezekiel, lamentations, daniel, and hosea. today i started reading the book of Joel. it has truly washed my soul and renewed my walk with the Lord. it's as though God is talking to me all the time and it is truly "joy unspeakable".


when we get our life right with God, then everything else will come into place. i can testify that from the moment i put God first, things began to automatically change. the unbearable weights of guilt and shame were lifted from my shoulders and have been replaced with a sense of worth and freedom that words cannot justify.


Jesus loves me so much and has given me His favor. I'm happier than i have ever been in my life to know that good things are coming into my life. true happiness always starts with God being the center of our life and then everything else that we love begans to appear... now that's beautiful!

My Beautiful Terrie

it feels so good to be in love and also know that i'm in the will of God. in Sept of 2007, Terrie and I met and we instantly felt a closeness and friendship.

in January of 2008, i started working for a software company that was based out of St. George, Utah and i traveled all over the U.S.

one weekend while i was working in Atlanta, Terrie surprised me by coming to meet me and this picture is of us at the park in Atlanta. it was amazing to say the least...

in mid-summer of 2008, i stopped traveling with LearnKey and moved to Alabama to be with Terrie while Noah was still in the Ark. it was a fun summer with lots of trips to the lake. we love the water and have so much fun swimming and taking picnics.

this is a picture of us with our aprons on that Terrie's grandma made. we're getting ready to have some fun in the kitchen. we love food and enjoy each other's company in the kitchen.

Oct 18th, 2008, Noah was borned. He is now 2 1/2 years old and this is a picture of us at the beach on dauphin island. he is a reflection of both me and terrie.

he loves watching "Toy Story" and "Cars". when he wakes up in the mornings, he immediately starts smiling and stretches just as though a flower is opening.

God has assured me that He is going to give me my family. Terrie and Noah are my family and i have been praying for God to make a way for us to be together.

He told me a few months ago, that if i would be obedient, that He would give me the desires of my heart. i believe it's about to happen and i'm so excited to know that God is control and is steering my ship.

my cup runneth over

all good things come from above and God has certainly filled my cup with good things over the past two months. the good things started on the very day i started obeying the voice of God. he told me a couple of months ago that if i would be obedient to Him that He would bring great opportunities to me. He told me that i didn't have to turn the world upside down and try to make things happen.

God has washed away the stress from my life and has filled my cup with the Joy of the Lord. it's almost like the things that i've been wanting to happen has already happened in my heart. even though my circumstances hasn't completely changed yet, i can feel with the certainty of heaven that God is steering my life.

Heavenly Perspective

Noah is bursting with knowledge, words, a beautiful little voice that says some of the cutest things. he loves to chew gum and he's very proud of it. when he's chewing gum, he tells everybody "hey" then immediately he then says, "i got gum". it's so funny, i can get enough of it.

i love to hear him say, "awe man"..., and "i'm precious", and "i'm cute". there's a country song i gave to terrie for valentines day that he likes to hear. it's called "Give me that girl" by Joe Nichols. he loves using straws as drum sticks and playing pretend drums with his straws.

after hearing the song, he said, mama's a country girl... then he said, i'm a country boy... it's so amazing to hear him put sentences together. it takes my breath away to see how fast he's growing and progressing.

knowing that God is working things out for me to be with my family has lifted me above all the obstacles in my life. it's as though God's Grace is being outpoured on me and i can't explain how much God has changed my perspective.

Russ Sarratt gave a devotional today at work today that was an exceptional truth from God. he talked about the fact that we have two ways to view the things in our life. thru a human perspective with limited means or we can view our circumstances thru God's perspective with unlimited power. i choose the latter and God has a perfect record and has never lost a battle, never been surprised, and he's never been late.

Something on the Horizon

God makes beautiful things... last weekend when i went to see noah and terrie, we decided to drive on down to dauphin island to see the water.

i have to say that noah has the cutest toes i've ever seen and to see him running barefoot in the sand was a beautiful sight. he is so loving and brings so much joy to me and terrie.

while we were walking along the beach, it felt as though God was walking beside us, confirming our relationship with each other and with Him.

i can't explain the peace that God has given me concerning my walk with Him and my family. every so often God says, "Now let me show you what I can do"... He never ceases to amaze me when He rolls back the clouds. i can say with confidence that my storm has passed.

i started reading my Bible a few weeks ago, and so far i've read Proverbs, Ecclesiates, Song of Solomon, Isaiah, Jerimiah, Lamentations, and now i'm almost halfway thru Ezekiel. in all my life i've never experienced what i'm feeling when i'm reading the Bible. it's as though God is actually talking to me and when i finish reading, it's like i've been washed clean and saved all over again.

it's a good feeling to be friends again with my Savior. i've missed him over the past few years. i know He never left me even though i wasn't listening or talking to Him. He was patient and long suffering with me. He waited for me to exhaust all means of my will until i looked up in my distress and called on His name for help. it was in that very moment that His presence came flooding into my soul and lifted me out of the mire and freed me from chains of my sin and guilt.

there's nothing like being free. there's nothing like being a good man. there's nothing like walking with God. there's nothing like getting a gift from the Lord. my gift is my family and i am so excited to know what is coming in my life.

My Father gives good gifts

It was another great weekend. God smiled on us and poured out His blessings without measure. My cup is filled to overflowing and I am at more peace with God than I can ever remember. They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder. After drifting away from God over the past few years, i cherish my relationship with God now more than ever. God has reminded me who I am.

God has established my feet. My eyes are fixed on the Master of the wind. He is my Refuge, my Fortress, and Hightower. He speaks to me continually as if He is walking by my side.

we had a great time at the beach on dauphin island and noah loved seeing the water and feeding the seagulls. there was a peace from God that spilled over into my soul and for the first time i could feel and see that being with my family was in sight. God asked me a few months ago what i wanted, and as our Father, it is in His interest to give us good gifts.

Matthew 7:11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him? i know without any doubts that there is a happy day for me and my family on the horizon.

Love is a beautiful thing

feels good to be in love and know that God has a wonderful plan for my life. a few years ago i met this beautiful person who made me feel so alive, who makes my heart pound when i think about holding her in my arms.
God's grace is revealing new things to us each day and i know in my heart that something awesome is about to happen in our lives. God has promised me that I will be with my family soon and it feels good to be able to hear the voice of God again.

For the past few months i've been reading my Bible with a fervency. i've read Isaiah, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon, and almost thru with Jeremiah. it has washed away all the stress and worries from my mind. i feel clean in the sight of God and it's reminded me of the person i was when Terrie and i first met.

Path called Faithfulness and Obedience

i can finally say that my storm has passed. it is as though a calm breeze blowing in my life and God is transforming me. God has freed me from all my anxiety and fear. He has replaced my broken heart with a brand new heart and i know that i know that i know my redemption is sure. this past Sunday, it felt as though God was sitting beside me as i wept tears of joy. i stood there thinking it was the first time in a long time that i was not weeping from guilt and regret.

i've been staying with some friends that is teaching me that the blessings never run out as long as we keep giving them away. it's an amazing feeling to feel safe and loved. God has revealed Himself thru my friends Terry and Theta. i'm reminded of the story in 2Kings where their was a couple who provided a room for Elisha. it's amazing to know that God loves me this much to allow me to stay with such Godly people that love God this much.

i've finished reading Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon, and almost thru reading Jerimiah. the more i read the cleaner i feel and it has removed all stress from me. there is a peace that clings to me and it's reassuring me that God has a plan. it's given me a new confidence in my walk with God, with myself, and with my relationship with my beautiful Terrie.

God has restored and repaired the brokeness of my heart. He has given me a new vision and hope for the future. Every morning when i wake up there is an expectation of what God is doing in my life and in the life of the ones i love. i know God is preparing me for His purpose. i know He loves me and sees something in me that is usable.

Before Christmas He asked me what i wanted and i told him that i wanted to be a part of Terrie and Noah's life. I wanted my family, i wanted to be able to be with them all the time.. to have the opportunity to love Terrie and stand beside her. to be able to go to sleep and wake up with my Terrie and my Noah. it was as though i could feel the Lord smiling at me, assuring me that He wanted to give this to me even more than i could imagine.

God has promised if we are faithful and obedient that He will give us the desires of our heart. more than anything in this world, i want to be with my family. i can see more clearly now that the path to lead me there is called faithfulness and obedience.